‘Autism Epiphanies’

We are a year into the diagnosis and still setting in and every now and then I have these ‘Autism Epiphanies’ you know moments where you realize the impact the diagnosis has on day-to-day activities and what that might mean long-term.  

For example; at gymnastics we came out into the parking lot and there a moms (with kids the same age) standing by their cars just chatting with their 3 years standing right next to them, not holding hands and not running.  At the time my husband was attending with me because we had both toddlers in tow and I said: “Did you see those two women? That will never be us.”

So when these type of things happen I try to stay away from heading down a rabbit hole of all the things that may be (or may not be in most cases) It breaks my heart to think how much more challenging his world is then his peers and the joy of certain things he doesn’t understand or get. Like Christmas – the excitement of being a kid the night before I don’t know that he will ever get to truly enjoy that anticipation. Sometimes I go so far to think he will never fall in love, have a crush or be nervous about a first kiss. There are so many magical moments in our life that we have and they pass by in an instant and only when we reflect do we really understand the magic the moment had.  Although, these thoughts break my heart they also allow me to have a greater appreciation of those moments in my life. I hope that he will enjoy more of them then I think over time or that I can create special magical moments just for him.

Until next time……